Temptation

A demon inside myself, driving me insane, tempting my whole body, taking me to the path of evil, for some reason a find it kind of right, for some reason I thought it was fine. Is like he went inside my body and started playing with me, freezing my heart turning it to an ice, with no intentions to have feelings now, is like he takes my organs and put them beside me, so I will be able to see them, to take them, to break them, in order to make people wish they’re dead. Nobody knows what I’m capable of, now that I’m not truly myself, I’m standing in a tornado of bad thoughts, with a demon on me, he plays his little tricks making me want more, more evilness, more badness, more wrong paths. It’s like an addiction. I find it like a temptation, a temptation that will not go away. Never, because it is in me, inside myself, and that demon now is part of me. I looked myself on the mirror and I didn’t recognize me, I saw another person, not me. My eyes full of tears, my head full of thoughts and my heart full of feelings. That was the hardest moment I could ever had. Miserable doomed, strangely cursed, magically wounded. The things I had are now lost, the things I felt mine and are now gone. Wishing everyone bad things, without something to look forward too, just the devil, the devil, the devil. The only thing that is left for me is the dehumanized dream of the fire burning in the world. The same fire that consumes everyone turning them into ashes, walking around circles without expecting someone to pay attention to me, I found myself crazy, crazy for real. Everything that I had live before was completely false. I was just "dreaming", I was just imagining it. And now when I look myself on the mirror I see myself, yes I do, but a fake me. Oh! What a sad thing...